Funny... First thing that got my attention was "am I an alcoholic"???
Back in the "bad old days" I was dating one of those, she was also VERY messed up in the head but I didn't really know all of that until we seperated,m in fact that's part of WHY we seperated.
Anyways, if you NEED to have a beer a night, even if it's just one, to be "normal" than you might be an alcoholic.
I won't go on about the alcohol stuff. I miss my occassional Sam Adams. I was a VERY light social drinker, maybe one or two beers a month, if that. I liked shots of various things too but I pretty much put an end to all of that when I started taking massive quantities of medication for my ailing heart.
Ummmm... Oh yeah.
Did I hear BUDDHIST??? mentioned in here????
Well... See... Like...
I've been trying to learn more about that, especially Tibetan Buddhism. in June I'm going to be doing a feature story (with photos of course) on a group coming from Deprung Loseling Monestary to do a mandala and an evening of traditional dance and music...
They were here last year and I got to check it all out, brought the wife and kid up for the dismantling of the mandala....
Getting WAY off the beaten path here I know....