I'm being a moody cow

[neil]

steve your lucky i cant have smokey bacon crisps and bacon butties are off limits

 

[epstns]

Yeah, Neil - and watch out for the Bar-B-Q joints, too! (Do they have those in England? We love them here.)

 

[Jeri]

I really haven't had my anxiety level going up YET!!! I know it's probably coming. I have been so wrapped up with my Mom (she's 94). She has been on the verge of death since Jan 4th of this year and still amazes me that she is still with us. God bless her. She had an MI and then a stroke at that time. SO I've been at the hospital day and night 24/7. Right now the main thing about my surgery that troubles me is that I wish I could put it off for a while but I have already. Doc told me this past Sept that I will need it but my husband and I had a vacation planned for Mar 1st and it is pre-paid so I really wanted to go. Right now my Mom is stable so if it stays that way, I will go. Then my surgery will be scheduled soon after I get back. I think I am going with the tissue valve. I keep coming back to that. One of my concerns is waking up on a vent or even just having that tube in my throat. That would cause me anxiety. Has any one here awaken without it?? Maybe I am being silly but that would bother me or maybe just the thought of it. I just wish my Mom will be OK. She had a heart attack in '97 and suffered alot of damage but she has always been a fighter and so am I. I am looking forward to climbing stairs without the shortness of breath and feeling those PVCs every morning in bed...(although that may not change). ANyway, thanks for listening to me rant ..... geez maybe I do have some anxiety, huh?? Hang in there ALlison and I will do.


Jeri

 

[pdx_guy]

Yeah, we understand. 'Been there, done that, got the scar.'

What helped me was giving to others. Despite my (at the time serious) issues, others had needs as well. Reaching out to them and focusing on helping them gave me much less time to fret over my own.

Two years post surgery today.

 

[AJB]

You are intitled to be moody and if medication helps I say go for it. I still on occasion take xanax . I am 7 months post op and I still have pitty me days that I do not feel normal and I can hear the valve in the back of my ear and it drives me crazy. Family and friends just dont understand as much as they try ! You are pefectly normal -well as normal as normal can get after a life changing moment like heart surgery. Just know your not alone