Hi
valdab;n879043 said:
thanks Pellicle - those words resonate. Learning about yourself. Life is full of risk. I take a risk when getting on a plane, crossing the road etc. And it's not as if the alternative is immortality. It's taken me a long time to reach this philosophical state of affairs. If three experts are telling me to wait, then what profit is there in me obsessing over what may or may not happen and seeking out a specialist who will tell me otherwise.
exactly, and well phrased. And few do actually reach that epiphany ...
I learned early (like I grew up knowing) that I may die early. I was diagnosed at 5 and in 1969 this "valve surgery" was pretty new and risky stuff.
I had a good friend die of cancer at 20 and my wife die unexpectedly a few years back ... to be alive is to face the certainty of death. People call that morbid, I call it sensible. Sensible because I know that I've got this opportunity. I know it better than many because I've had the plate almost removed from my table a few times now.
Also, its prudent to wait to "
see what else may crop up" that they can "
fix while they are in there"
It has probably helped my mindset that my photography now keeps me so ludicrously busy I don't have time for the obsessive research that used to occupy my time when first diagnosed.
I don't know if you run a business, but (assuming you do) its being busy with photography that has seen me only do it as a business once and for a year ... I would hate to turn what I love into a grind.
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It was a very cold day and as you may imagine it takes some dedication to put naked hands onto alluminium knobs to adjust all the movements on an LF camera ... in -15C (also that image should be quite large, right click and open in new tab)
A friend of mine (57) died suddenly on the ski slopes earlier this year. Not, as was originally thought, from careless off-piste activity. Turned out to be an undiagnosed brain aneurysm. At least we all know what we are dealing with and can make the appropriate lifestyle changes to lengthen our odds
true, and also we can decide that what we do is so much who we are that while we take precautions and enact systems for safety : we still do it.
I was told by my surgeon that I should stop riding my motorbike because being on warfarin would make me more likely to die from an aneurysm in the case of a head trauma. I have not stopped riding, but I do follow the philosophy of :
There are old motorcylists
There are bold motorcyclists
But there are no old bold motorcyclists.
I leave "bold" to the young that I photograph ;-) [IMG2=JSON]{"data-align":"none","data-size":"full","src":"https:\/\/c1.staticflickr.com\/5\/4299\/36209385735_3a567ec84f_b.jpg"}[/IMG2]
Best Wishes