The ticking and the crying

[Cris N]

Hayley,
Something else has occurred to me. Have you talked with your dr about having a sleep study done. It could be that you have something else going on like sleep apnea or Restless Leg Syndrome. Either of those can aggravate your other depression & anxiety issues since both cause sleep deprivation. It doesn't hurt.

Good luck.

Cris

 

[Karlynn]

Could someone explain how they do a sleep study. I always thought I'd never be able to do a successful one because it's the times when I absolutely HAVE to sleep that I can't fall asleep!

 

[imhayley]

3 good days in row

3 good days in row

The anti depressant (7th one now) my doctor gave me is the winner I think. That along with the sound machine and Ive slept good for 3 nights and the crying has subsided (well comes and goes less frequent to be honest) a bit more and wow this is going well. Thank you all and Have a Merry Chrismahanakawanza to all!!!

 

[joanne6]

So glad you are doing better. I love your holiday wish at the end of your post. I have never seen that before but I will use it.
Joanne

 

[Karlynn]

Hayley - so nice to read you are feeling better.

Have a Merry Christmas!

 

[SHerrin Hutt]

Sorry to hear about your problem but my second ohs waaas done in 3/2002 and the ticking is as lound as ever. Before the surgery I made my husband take the batteries out ot the clock at the hosp.My youngest daughter that is in college is sentive to sound like I am. She could hear me across her dorm room. the only thing I have found that has helped is my c-pap machine. It also helps with my husband loud snoring. Good luck with what ever you try. HAPPY HOLIDAY to ALL

 

[imhayley]

thank you

thank you

Thank You so much for your support I really appreciate your feedback!! I hope you have a wonderful holiday season and a Happy New Year!
tick tick tick

 

[BDMc]

Wishing You Happiness

Wishing You Happiness

Dear Hayley, I have to say I never associate you with deprssion. I always think of the beautiful smile in your "avatar"! It's the little steps that will get you there, so keep trying to deal with one at a time. I know it's hard, especially at this time of the year! Getting the sleep will enable you to cope with more. We are all different, and you have to find your pwn pace. Hang in there you are on your way! Happy Holidays! Brian

 

[imhayley]

smiles

smiles

Yes my avatar shows how happy I can be especially in "THAT" picture as it was my wedding day (three yrs ago) and I was standing barefoot on the beach in St. Croix USVI......life was so good then and Im hopeing things return to that level again real soon. Thank you for your kind words you did make me smile and I need that this morning!!! THANK YOU!

 

[ClickerTicker]

Hayley - look on the bright side, as long as you're ticking you're still here
My cardiologist told me that the only time to worry about the ticking was if it suddenly stops!
Have a great Christmas.

 

[perkicar]

I just returned from getting a sound maching and I think this is going to work out just great! I will let you know as tonight just might be the night I actually sleep more than a few winks. As for the crying......maybe I will hit my finger with a hammer and give myself "something" to cry about. Thank You all for the input....I can always count on you when I have no answeres, am feeling scared or just need some good feedback. THANK YOU....
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Let your doc know that the antidepressants are working for you--not every drug is right for every person. And is there any kind of "mended hearts" group out in Reno? perhaps there are folks there who you can talk to real time that can help you get through this. I'm fortunate, mine bugs me sometimes but for the most part it's just a "new" part of me. I miss the "whoosh whoosh whoosh" from my murmur/stenosis.

 

[Kathy Canistro]

clicking

clicking

Hi
I can hear the clicking all the time, I don't know if it the mitral or the aortic or both? It doesn't keep me awake and now my husband doesn't have to drive me crazy he can just listen to the clicking and know that I am ok.
I hear it mostly from my throat and if I am in a small room. It does seem that I have gotten used to it. It will be 6 months for my surgery on the 30th of December.
You will get used to it in time., hang in there.

Kathy

 

[imhayley]

so grateful

so grateful

Thank You all once again and yes all to the above. Christmas eve will be 6 mos. post op and my cardiologist did say last week that Im still healing and yes the tick was loud. (Like he cares...he isnt ticking away). Its so bizzare how I hear it out my neck and mouth sometimes....thats tooooo much for me right there but Im handling it......NOT. Okay the trazadone is working beautifuly as I havnt cried all day and I didnt refer to everyone as " F" words.
The sound machine is cool but the rain keeps me awake too. Figures. The ocean sound is great until the seagulls start honking then I wake up ready to kill the birds.HA HA I give up!!! I will just live insane HA! I just know I HATE THIS SO MUCH and if I would JUST accept it I could go on but for some reason my record skips. Thank You all YOUR AWESOME and I need to hear all of your input!!~~~~Im most grateful!

 

[BDMc]

Sleep Should Help Your Tolerance Levels

Sleep Should Help Your Tolerance Levels

Hayley, Well no wonder you were so happy in that picture! We each have our own timetables, but it will get better in time. I still have times when my heartbeat is a source of anxiety, but they are more and more rare, and thankfully don't interfere with my day to day life. I wish I could send you some balm to ease your heart and mind. I'm sending a big Christmas hug your way. Brian

 

[gadgetman]

SLAP, SLAP, SLAP.

SHAKE, SHAKE, SHAKE.

Hayley, now that da family is got ya straight hang in there.

Although I'm a "non-ticking" member of this here organization, I became VERY aware of my heart after my surgery. I would hear the pounding, beat-beat-beat, almost every night. I had some success with the "sound machine" too. I'm coming up on my "one-year" point and things seem to be calming down, or at least I don't notice it as much.

You will reach that point too. I hope and pray you get back to that "smiling, happy, carefree" Hayley in your avatar real soon. Just remember, someone is here 24/7 to "read" your posts and offer a shoulder. We all care for each other here.

Hope you can find that peace and enjoy the "new" life you've been given.

Hugs and best wishes and,

May God Bless,

Danny

 

[imhayley]

ZZZZZZZzzzzzzz

ZZZZZZZzzzzzzz

Oh my goodness do I feel terrific!!!!!! TODAY marks my 6months post op. WOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOO. Im sleeping like a baby (in the rain thanks to me new sound machine) and things are looking up. The anti depressant is working so good and I feel it. Ive already picked up all the presents my dogs left me in the back yard, then raked the entire back yard (boy was honey surprised when he came home from the store
Im sitting here smiling from ear to ear and I actually cant hear any ticking at this moment. I cant believe it.....its like day and night. I had a bad morning yesterday but pulled my head out and turned the day around. Thank YOU EVERYONE WHO POSTED HERE for me your so nice and supportive and gosh I dont know what else to do except put on some muzic and dance a jig in YOUR honor!!!!!!!!! Your all so very kind and IM FOREVER grateful!!! Happy Holidays and hugs to all!!!!!!!

 

[Karlynn]

Congratulations on your wonderful day! Wishing you many many more!

 

[geebee]

Hayley,

Great news on your great day. When I have had blue times in the past, I always marked the calendar when I had a good day. I would then look at the calendar when I was feeling down and I would be able to remember that "this too shall pass".

I hope your "up" continues.

 

[Cris N]

Hayley,
So happy to hear you had a good day. Hope this is the first of many.

Cris

 

[imhayley]

Thanks

Thanks

Thank You!!!