Thank you everyone for your well wishes. Yes, I?m nervous but not nearly as much as I expected. I was freaking out back in December when I first learned about my heart condition and had to use lorazepam (ativan) almost every other day. But I?ve come to accept the situation and look at it as a personal challenge, something that I can be proud having conquered for many years down the road.
I?ve also devoted a lot of free time coming up with ways to spoil myself during the recovery, like the following:
Rented a recliner/lift chair; bought some DVDs and dug out ones I had been meaning to watch; loaded up the DVR with interesting shows and movies; set up our mini fridge in the bedroom near the recliner; bought some graphic novels (aka comic books) to read when my brain and eyes can?t handle too many words; recently purchased a small Asus eee laptop/netbook for my wife and I to use at the hospital and around the house.
I?ve cleared off the calendar by getting all the to-do items done and hiring people to care for the lawn. My wife will have relatives help take care of our two kids, Josh (9) and Syd (5), but she clearly has the toughest job. I got a set of intercoms and placed one next to the recliner, so I can reach her quickly. (If my recovery is relatively painfree I may have to
fake it or she won?t spoil me quite so much.
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Anyway, my only fear is waking up after surgery and not knowing quite what to expect. I think once I come out of the haze and can adjust myself to the many discomforts, I?ll be fine. And I can then start looking forward to a nice long vacation.