Chris,
I understand too well the "control freak" syndrome. My staff allways hated my desire to "micromanage" and it was troublesome. Couple that with "perfectionism" and you get a guy that really can relate to what you are going through.
As a pilot, I hate riding in airliners because I don't have a set of controls(no fear of flying, just not being in control).
Bonnie is right about my progress through the phases of my treatment. She, Walter, Scottie, Nancy, Ron, Al and many others here made all the difference. But I was sure that I had been given a death sentence and had to prepare everyone and everything for that outcome. Of course, I was up till 1 a. m. the morning of my surgery(had to be at hospital by 5 a. m. and the special antiseptic bathing instructions I received were going to take at least an hour of my time.) getting those last details taken care of. You know like which color file folders had the most critical papers in them and who to call and who to email along with the correct order for announcing the outcome to all who needed to know. That level of detail does get the head off the details of the surgery that you can not control. Really wanted to call the surgeon to remind him to get a good night sleep and not drink that evening. Also, would have liked to have some of my police friends keep him at home that night, but alas they felt I was being a tad obsessive. Know what I mean, Vern?
Ross was in hospital in ICU during my struggle to face climbing the mountain. Everyone here was really worried about him. He was on the brink for weeks and in ICU something like a month and a half. So it is little wonder that he is struggling with the results of that and not sleeping anything like a person would want to. Course us control freaks would really like to avoid sleep altogether so as to not miss anything or lose control.
Y'all just keep on keeping on. See ya later today, might even try to make it to Bonnie's Chat tonight.
Bill