Hi Rick! I know you read my other post-surgery post, but I wanted to post something for you here. I too reached the point of being very calm by the time I was about a week away from surgery. I was still very aware of the scary possibilities, but I tried to focus on the positive. I encourage you to do the same thing. I was none too happy with the thought of that darn ventilator, but there's no getting around it. It's a necessary part of this. Someone told me to just remember that the machine would be doing exactly what it's supposed to do and to just remain calm and patient. As you know, I had a couple of things with mine that made it unpleasant. The time to take mine out came right at shift change, late at night, so removal was delayed and I was very awake and aware of it. I kept reminding myself to relax, but it was frustrating to be hot and unable to communicate other discomforts that had nothing to do with the ventilator. But they got it out, it did its job, and it's all just a memory now.
Tell your family to expect you to look pretty bad when they first see you in ICU. I had told mine, but they were still alarmed. I was pale, had wires and tubes everywhere, and it was scary for them. My daughter almost passed out. They were able to get my attention to say hello. I vaguely remember seeing faces and squeezing a couple of hands. That made them feel better, and it also made me feel better. I knew I was alive!!
The only nausea I had was when the nurse gave me the aspirin on an empty stomach. I woke up out of a dead sleep and luckily she was right there. It was in ICU so she was by my side that first night. They grabbed a little pail for me to throw up in, but I just kept breathing slow, focusing, and saying to myself "don't throw up, you got this, don't throw up". And thank goodness the phenagren kicked in as fast as it did. After that, there was never any nausea. So hopefully you'll experience little to none as well. My nurses usually planned ahead with the aspirin and the pain meds to be sure I had something on my stomach before I took it.
One more thing. Insulin. I don't know if you're diabetic now or not. I'm not. A couple of times when they checked my blood sugar, the level was high. There was usually a good explanation though...what I had for breakfast, or checking it too soon after I'd eaten. At one point they wanted to give me insulin, but I asked them to wait. Sure enough, my blood sugar came right back down just as it should. So I'm not saying to disobey their orders, but ask questions and make sure they aren't just going through the motions.
All along, the doctors kept telling me I had age on my side. I'm only 46. I can't help but think that's helped me bounce back so quickly, but also it's determination that this won't be the thing that takes me down. Just keep looking forward and don't get discouraged. I was symptomatic too before the surgery, so I just feel like things can't get anything but better from here. I can already tell a difference in the way I feel after walking. Granted, I'm not going very far yet, but having had shortness of breath for about a year, I can tell that things will be much better once I'm recovered.
Good luck to you! And if you have any specific questions, please feel free to ask.
Liz