Cooker - you are doing great! Congrats to all of the people who are actively losing weight.
It concerns me a bunch, though, that you refer to losing weight as "torture," and lovingly refer to greasy food. I pass no judgment. However, I grew up with a mother who had a similar outlook - healthy eating was torture, and she couldn't imagine life without her food - especially the state fair type of food - fried donuts, corn dogs, cheese curds. The sad part is, as her daughter, I watched her slowly eat herself to death. She died at 48.
Losing weight isn't really about the food now, is it? It is about feeling deprived (or not feeling deprived), it is about listening to your body and your feelings. It is about whatever food represents to you. Because I can GUARANTEE you, if you were listening to your body (and not just your taste buds or what food represents for you), fried donuts would not be your top food choice. And then, losing weight becomes much, much easier.
I LOVE the taste of fried donuts. Yum! But, keeping a healthy diet otherwise, when I eat them, they make me sick. And so when I eat them, I know I will feel like crap for a while, which is auto incentive not to eat them.
I don't mean to single you out. Jut having watched someone dear to me prioritize food over life, and having been robbed of a mother for all of my adult life, it is hard for me to see others love their food to the detriment of their health. In the long run, is it really worth it???