Thank you nanacy and Jim. See what i didn't tell you were the results of the CAth
I had finally come to grips with my valve this past April before i went for my echogram. On the way there I told my partner that i was finally comfortable with it and watch the rug be pulled out from underneath me and sure enough it was!!!
Well when i first posted I was concerned about regular tried and proven incision OR the minival invasive surgery!! My cario had NO problem with this! I told you he is great!! IF my cath came out alright I was going for mininval invasive that really is the way to do after doing my research HOWEVER MY body let me down!!!
Even after following the Am heart diet and taking the aspirin and excersie turns out I have blocakages IF I didn't need to have my valve replaced then these would NOT be treated!!! I just found out May 5th and have gone to peices about it!!! Yes I know how lucky I am etc etc BUT I cannot accept it!!! I am having one hell of a time!!!
First of all what good was any of what i did for the last 2.5 years??? When they come into you after the surgery to tell you to change their life style what are they going to tell me??? That is my biggest complaint!!!
I've already been to the super market and prepared list of the grams of fat etc of all the food I have been eating!
For my birthday I've bought several new books which I was planning to read during my convalence instead I'm in them now! The one that i had wanted to buy at least a year ago was Dean Ornish -- I have been half haertly following his diet over the past year and am still kicking myself for not getting it sooner!!
I personnally believe that my problem including my heart value IS DUE TO STRESS!!! No -- no research work has been done that I am aware of about stress and the calisification ot ithe valve!
So now you know. --In his program Dean says that isolation is a great part to due with heart disea!!! SOOO I guess I've taken the first step. -- Finally saying something.
Problem is at times I don't want this surgery (I know on a intellect level i know it is my only opinion BUT STILL NOT EMOTIONALLY) -- that is one of the resons it has taken so long to get it schuduled My cardiologist realizes it. he is givening me time to pull my self together that is why I travel 220 miles to see him not all docotrs are like him! I knew stress was a problem and started seeing a shrink really a counsllor when i found out about my valve BUT I only dabbled in it -- I know no use looking back -- my trucking motto. So after the surgery I will begin AGAIN a new lif style!
Thanks!