For some reason I remember pretty much everything from the time I woke up. To tell the truth, the fact that I WOKE UP seemed to trump any unpleasantness I experienced afterwards.
The nurse kept asking if I wanted to see my family, and I kept shaking my head no...I didn't want them to see me with the vent tube still in. Little did I know that they had already visited when I was still sleeping after surgery.
Personally I found the vent to be no big deal (although I too was scared about it before surgery). I was still groggy enough that if I found myself fighting it I would just drift back off. I was coached here to breath with the machine, but my vent was so quiet I couldn't hear it to do that. When it was time to come out they said 1, 2, 3 and I just gave one "heave" and it was out. I found that anything they "removed" that might be unpleasant while they removed it was worth that moment of unpleasantness once it was removed.
My only problem in ICU was that I was on Fentanyl, but not a pump, and I had an inattentive nurse overnight. Fentanyl worked well but is very short acting...I would only agree to use it in the future if *I* had control of when I got the next dose. The morphine made me nauseous so they put me on the Fentanyl, and I agree with Bob that I was less groggy, which probably explains why I remember more of my ICU experience. Like I have said previously, my ENTIRE experience from the time I walked though the doors until the time I walked out was MUCH less painful than I envisioned it would be before the surgery. Having said that...there is nothing anyone could have told me that would have convinced me of that, but this great site did take the edge off. When all of these people who have been through it told me it would be ok I had to believe I could do it too.
We're pulling for you Jeff...it sounds like you are right where you should be. Once you get a date it's hard to focus on little else. I found focusing on other things like watching sports, playing a video game, playing with the dog, etc. helped keep my mind off of it somewhat. I can't say it too often...the waiting IS the hardest part.