Wiles Darkwinter
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Posting this in two parts, as the word count was too long...
I left the fulltime army in 2017 and have been a reservist from then until now. In 2019, at age 28, I was having a routine army medical which included an ECG. I had plenty of these while serving, never with any issues. On this occasion my ECG threw up an abnormality which suggested LVH (Left Ventricular Hypertrophy). The nurse assured me that it was probably just a weird reading and young/fit people often have weird readings on ECG. I was told to attend a cardiologist for an echo just to be sure. Turns out that my left ventricle is fine, and my cardiologist had no explanation for why that reading would have come up on an ECG, as my heart rhythm was completely normal.
“HOWEVER” she mentioned a good 20 minutes into my appointment... I do have mild-moderate aortic root dilation. Measuring around 43mm at the aortic root and ascending aorta. “What the **** is an aortic root?” I thought... My understanding of anatomy at this stage in my life was limited to HR thresholds for physical exercise. I was later sent for a confirmatory CT scan. Luckily for me, my aortic valve appeared tri-cuspid. Which as you all know, is a big win for someone in my situation. (Looking back, if this complete fluke of an ECG leading to a follow up with a cardiologist hadn’t occurred, I may not have been around for much longer).
At the same time, astonishingly, my father - my best mate and hero, had been diagnosed with severe aortic valve regurgitation and mild aortic dilation. This happened STRAIGHT after I had my scans. He was 60 at the time, and probably one of the fittest blokes I know. He’d been a cyclist for 30 years and still races B grade on the weekends and regularly beats dudes my age and does it with style. A great father, smart, funny, a piss taker and only staunch when he needed to be. Everything that I still look up to and aspire to emulate.
The old boy was in theatre a few months later and gets the AVR with a bio valve. It all goes well and he recovers with nil issues. Almost too easy for the old *******.
After the dust settled, the plan was to monitor my aorta over 12 months and watch for growth. I began learning about the restrictions and recommendations for someone with a dilated aorta, and slowly my world was turned upside down. I looked back over the last ten years and the beatings my body had taken both in the gym and in the pub. I had gone pretty hard. Confusion over the causality of such a condition reigned supreme in my mind. Genetics? Lifestyle? Luck? Bit of everything? Most likely the latter. The plan was to wait and watch. Maybe it would stay stable and I would never require surgery? My cardiologist whom I didn’t choose, and was assigned to me by the military, told me I should try to avoid the surgeon’s knife at all cost. I know many of you on this forum are in the waiting room, and I empathize with the stress of marking time and feeling like you’re the only person who is taking this seriously. In the 12 months of waiting for my next CT to confirm any growth, I had some horrendous experiences with cardiologists who’s bedside manner was up their arseholes. Watching them look up my case after I’d seen them multiple times and remind themselves of what the story with my aorta was frustrated me. Now I realise that cardiologists have heavy caseloads, often hundreds of patients, and I was being a brat by expecting the red carpet rolled out for me whenever I walked in there. But **** it, I was the man in the arena at the time, and I would probably behave the same way again if I had a time machine.
I was offended by my cardiologist’s suggestion that I could only lift 20kg from now on, so with the help of my fiancé, we found a second opinion in the form of a sports cardiologist in Sydney who wasn’t going to wrap me in cotton wool. He was a lot more supportive, and provided me with studies, evidence and videos which would fill me with confidence. He spoke of an NBA player who had returned to the sport after his aorta was replaced. He sent me this video - which is a lecture from David Tyrone who pioneered his method of Valve Sparing Aortic root replacement “David’s Procedure”, the end of which details many athletes and soldiers who have returned to active duty after the surgery.
Fast forward 12 months of anxious waiting and deep internet dives into the darkest corners of cardiothoracic medical history. Turns out Albert Einstein died of a failed aortic graft... I’m in good company, I thought. A younger more confident me would have said HE was in good company. I laid down on the CT machine bed. A few deep breaths before the machine whirred to life and a big old canula is inserted. I’d been here before, but not like this. I knew there was something wrong this time, it was just a matter of how bad. As you know being slowly inserted into the CT machine is almost like getting slid into a portal to another dimension. “Take a breath in and hold” ....Yeah yeah whatever...” Breathe normally” ... Drive thrusters to warp speed captain...The results were prophetic of certain surgery in short order. A 50mm aortic root and ascending aorta! 6-7mm growth in 12 months!
Deep down I was quietly shitting myself. I began to pass through the stages of grief. I was totally and utterly devastated. I began asking the big questions, wondering what life was all about, and how the hell I was going to reinvent myself? All I'd known was the military and physical labour jobs. How could anyone understand? I looked at people who were wasting their time and lives on what I perceived as trivial things. Again, in hindsight, all fairly tragic on my behalf. I wish I had found this forum 18 months ago for a bit of perspective. I needed someone to look me in the eye and tell me stop being so self-important. How special did I think I was? There are people in way worse conditions with way worse prognosis’, and I knew that deep down, but I had been dealt a low blow.
Enter stage left my cardiothoracic surgeon. I won't post his name on here, but if anyone in Australia who is in the waiting room is interested on this forum, DM me and I can provide his details. Let’s call him Professor Peter. The man was a complete gangster. Swagger and confidence in spades, no ********, no hand holding, just a science and evidence based approach with an aura of compitence which was exactly what I needed. He laid out the facts. I expressed my concerns and they were met with a calm expression of the data. “Well that’s just not what the data show’s” he’d tell me. He’d say things like, “You won't need to worry about restrictions after the surgery because I will have fixed the problem” ... It was the confidence booster I needed. My fiancé, sitting next to me, was anaylsing me quizzically. She’d look at him, and then back to me, I’m sure she thought I was about to offer him any sexual favour that his huge surgeon brain could dream up. I probably would have if it came to it. As we had private health insurance, it wasn’t required. But the offer is still there, Prof.
I was scheduled for surgery. He told me there was a good chance he wouldn’t be able to save my native valve and so I would have to consider what valve I wanted. I did some weighing up, and I decided with the bio valve. I know a lot of you on this forum have had great experience with the mech valves, and that living with blood thinners can be adapted to, but in the end it came down to limitations of physical capacity, slight though they are, which steered my choice.
The surgery and following few days, which was only 6 weeks ago, was a wild ride. At this point I had accepted any possible risk, and completely resigned myself to the hands of the surgical team. I had made my peace with it. I think that is really important to do. Because I’d had all the anxious nights and stressful conversations, and re-writing of wills etc etc in the previous weeks, I really tried to soak the experience in. My mind was clear. I was fully in the moment. If the worst should happen, I didn't want my loved ones, especially my fiancé, to see me a bubbling mess in my final moments. I wanted to face mortality’s rising tide with an attitude that I would have been proud of. We joked and laughed and told each other we loved each other over and again right up until I let go of her hand and was wheeled into the operating theatre. The last thing I said to Professor Peter was to have fun in there.
I left the fulltime army in 2017 and have been a reservist from then until now. In 2019, at age 28, I was having a routine army medical which included an ECG. I had plenty of these while serving, never with any issues. On this occasion my ECG threw up an abnormality which suggested LVH (Left Ventricular Hypertrophy). The nurse assured me that it was probably just a weird reading and young/fit people often have weird readings on ECG. I was told to attend a cardiologist for an echo just to be sure. Turns out that my left ventricle is fine, and my cardiologist had no explanation for why that reading would have come up on an ECG, as my heart rhythm was completely normal.
“HOWEVER” she mentioned a good 20 minutes into my appointment... I do have mild-moderate aortic root dilation. Measuring around 43mm at the aortic root and ascending aorta. “What the **** is an aortic root?” I thought... My understanding of anatomy at this stage in my life was limited to HR thresholds for physical exercise. I was later sent for a confirmatory CT scan. Luckily for me, my aortic valve appeared tri-cuspid. Which as you all know, is a big win for someone in my situation. (Looking back, if this complete fluke of an ECG leading to a follow up with a cardiologist hadn’t occurred, I may not have been around for much longer).
At the same time, astonishingly, my father - my best mate and hero, had been diagnosed with severe aortic valve regurgitation and mild aortic dilation. This happened STRAIGHT after I had my scans. He was 60 at the time, and probably one of the fittest blokes I know. He’d been a cyclist for 30 years and still races B grade on the weekends and regularly beats dudes my age and does it with style. A great father, smart, funny, a piss taker and only staunch when he needed to be. Everything that I still look up to and aspire to emulate.
The old boy was in theatre a few months later and gets the AVR with a bio valve. It all goes well and he recovers with nil issues. Almost too easy for the old *******.
After the dust settled, the plan was to monitor my aorta over 12 months and watch for growth. I began learning about the restrictions and recommendations for someone with a dilated aorta, and slowly my world was turned upside down. I looked back over the last ten years and the beatings my body had taken both in the gym and in the pub. I had gone pretty hard. Confusion over the causality of such a condition reigned supreme in my mind. Genetics? Lifestyle? Luck? Bit of everything? Most likely the latter. The plan was to wait and watch. Maybe it would stay stable and I would never require surgery? My cardiologist whom I didn’t choose, and was assigned to me by the military, told me I should try to avoid the surgeon’s knife at all cost. I know many of you on this forum are in the waiting room, and I empathize with the stress of marking time and feeling like you’re the only person who is taking this seriously. In the 12 months of waiting for my next CT to confirm any growth, I had some horrendous experiences with cardiologists who’s bedside manner was up their arseholes. Watching them look up my case after I’d seen them multiple times and remind themselves of what the story with my aorta was frustrated me. Now I realise that cardiologists have heavy caseloads, often hundreds of patients, and I was being a brat by expecting the red carpet rolled out for me whenever I walked in there. But **** it, I was the man in the arena at the time, and I would probably behave the same way again if I had a time machine.
I was offended by my cardiologist’s suggestion that I could only lift 20kg from now on, so with the help of my fiancé, we found a second opinion in the form of a sports cardiologist in Sydney who wasn’t going to wrap me in cotton wool. He was a lot more supportive, and provided me with studies, evidence and videos which would fill me with confidence. He spoke of an NBA player who had returned to the sport after his aorta was replaced. He sent me this video - which is a lecture from David Tyrone who pioneered his method of Valve Sparing Aortic root replacement “David’s Procedure”, the end of which details many athletes and soldiers who have returned to active duty after the surgery.
Fast forward 12 months of anxious waiting and deep internet dives into the darkest corners of cardiothoracic medical history. Turns out Albert Einstein died of a failed aortic graft... I’m in good company, I thought. A younger more confident me would have said HE was in good company. I laid down on the CT machine bed. A few deep breaths before the machine whirred to life and a big old canula is inserted. I’d been here before, but not like this. I knew there was something wrong this time, it was just a matter of how bad. As you know being slowly inserted into the CT machine is almost like getting slid into a portal to another dimension. “Take a breath in and hold” ....Yeah yeah whatever...” Breathe normally” ... Drive thrusters to warp speed captain...The results were prophetic of certain surgery in short order. A 50mm aortic root and ascending aorta! 6-7mm growth in 12 months!
Deep down I was quietly shitting myself. I began to pass through the stages of grief. I was totally and utterly devastated. I began asking the big questions, wondering what life was all about, and how the hell I was going to reinvent myself? All I'd known was the military and physical labour jobs. How could anyone understand? I looked at people who were wasting their time and lives on what I perceived as trivial things. Again, in hindsight, all fairly tragic on my behalf. I wish I had found this forum 18 months ago for a bit of perspective. I needed someone to look me in the eye and tell me stop being so self-important. How special did I think I was? There are people in way worse conditions with way worse prognosis’, and I knew that deep down, but I had been dealt a low blow.
Enter stage left my cardiothoracic surgeon. I won't post his name on here, but if anyone in Australia who is in the waiting room is interested on this forum, DM me and I can provide his details. Let’s call him Professor Peter. The man was a complete gangster. Swagger and confidence in spades, no ********, no hand holding, just a science and evidence based approach with an aura of compitence which was exactly what I needed. He laid out the facts. I expressed my concerns and they were met with a calm expression of the data. “Well that’s just not what the data show’s” he’d tell me. He’d say things like, “You won't need to worry about restrictions after the surgery because I will have fixed the problem” ... It was the confidence booster I needed. My fiancé, sitting next to me, was anaylsing me quizzically. She’d look at him, and then back to me, I’m sure she thought I was about to offer him any sexual favour that his huge surgeon brain could dream up. I probably would have if it came to it. As we had private health insurance, it wasn’t required. But the offer is still there, Prof.
I was scheduled for surgery. He told me there was a good chance he wouldn’t be able to save my native valve and so I would have to consider what valve I wanted. I did some weighing up, and I decided with the bio valve. I know a lot of you on this forum have had great experience with the mech valves, and that living with blood thinners can be adapted to, but in the end it came down to limitations of physical capacity, slight though they are, which steered my choice.
The surgery and following few days, which was only 6 weeks ago, was a wild ride. At this point I had accepted any possible risk, and completely resigned myself to the hands of the surgical team. I had made my peace with it. I think that is really important to do. Because I’d had all the anxious nights and stressful conversations, and re-writing of wills etc etc in the previous weeks, I really tried to soak the experience in. My mind was clear. I was fully in the moment. If the worst should happen, I didn't want my loved ones, especially my fiancé, to see me a bubbling mess in my final moments. I wanted to face mortality’s rising tide with an attitude that I would have been proud of. We joked and laughed and told each other we loved each other over and again right up until I let go of her hand and was wheeled into the operating theatre. The last thing I said to Professor Peter was to have fun in there.
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