hopefully things will sort themselves, but i have to be honest the depression and sometimes anger is taking over a lot of the time. just trying to take it one day at a time and grasping for anything positive regarding my recovery....
Hey Aaron,
First ... WELCOME.
Second ... I understand what you mean about the depression and anger, somewhat anyway. Right before I had my third open heart surgery (January 2003), I was very angry/bitter/depressed/sad/mad ... you name it. My grandmother (Mom's side) had just died that October (2002) and many other things were NOT going right at all. So, I'm not sure I started out with the right attitude towards the surgery, but as it came closer, I felt more and more relaxed and, more or less, at peace.
By the time I was on the road to recovery, I was realizing that I had to be happy to make things work. And, just like that, something "snapped" inside of me...and I became a better person for it. Can't say that I'm 100% happy and such all the time, but I'm not sure anyone really is anyway....
*shrugs*
MOST things have "fallen into place" for me, but others ... well, not so much.
Point is ... you will find a way to get through all of this, including the depression and anger....
Thoughts/prayers coming your way for a continued SUCCESSFUL recovery.
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