THE DECISION
THE DECISION
Thanks everyone for the greetings. I'd like to respond to some of your posts and for those not mentioned, I appreciate hearing from you and will respond to any specific inquiries to my experiance.
Ross and Nancy, who seem to be a big part of the backbone of valve replacement--thanks for enabling me to be so well prepared for this trauma.
Hensey, is Rain always right????
(our Rain) I'm up early, can"t sleep for long periods.
Georgia, yes surgery seems to be going good maybe we are on a roll. hope so!
Heather, resting isn"t easy but letting others do for me seems to come natural.
Betty, the staff at Brigham and Women hospital took great care of me.
Sylvia, I can do all but rest, that is difficult.
Karen, its not reeeeeal easy, but the mental part(mind makes it worse than it is) knowledge, acceptance, familiarity, letting go, is an important way toward the goal--good health--acceptable quality of life.
Rain, I used that hug you gave me after my first throat tickle that brought on a coughing fit. GOd it was awful!(I need a bottle of rain)
Johnny-Les They may have been unrecognised symptoms but now its a moot point
But this sword hanging by a thin strand of thread is no longer there AND THAT WAS A LOAD its removal brings a big sigh of relief.
At my appointment following my 6 mnth echo I sensed a change in the way my cardiologist was talking to me. He said to me"we have passed from the severe to the critical stage." "Its time for surgery" well, he coud have dumped a bucket of ice water over my head and shocked me less(reality hits home)
I said,"O.K. what do you want me to do? whats the next step?"
He said," I want to set up an appointment for you to see the surgeon" " When?" "Can you see him this afternoon?" "This Afternoon?" "yes, you should have the surgery soon" "you mean within the next 6 months?" "no, soon" "what is soon?" "Three weeks" GOD I thought I can't stand this, but I have to put my decisions in his hands, and I accepted my fate.
"I would have liked to wait until spring, I really feel pretty good"
"I know you are asymptomatic, but you have to be aware that with that opening down to .6c.m. your first sympton could be sudden death." I made the decision that moment---no turning back! And that was the first page of the next chapter in my life.
stay cool
keep smilin I think I worked up a nap time,I hope bye-bye