AJB
Active member
welcome to the site! i enjoyed your post. i had 2 babies one year after another, then 5 days after having the second baby discovered i would need heart surgery within the year! i know how you feel, like nobody understands you or how you feel or what you have gone through. i think everyone thinks surgery makes you "fixed" but for me it opened tons of other problems and worries. now i am faced with possibly not being able to have a 3rd child even though i received a tissue valve. its hard when someone tells you that child birth is no longer an option. i think as a women it really takes a toll. everyone tells me to be happy with the two i have, but i always pictured myself with 5 kids! sometimes i wish i could go back two or three years in to re live life without knowing about this heart problem. i miss living normally.
take care !
Everyone keeps telling me to be happy with the three kids I have and Iam however, when you plan for several months to have another and in a matter of days have the hope and choice to be able to have another child taken away is very hard to deal with. I am blessed to have the three girls but like you have always pictured myself with four or five children.This is what my life is now and I have to deal with it and be strong for my children and husband, it does help to have someone to speak about it with! So thank you for sharing your story with me. Afterall I am still alive to tell my story and to be a mommy to my girls.