della_anne
Well-known member
Hey everyone!
Haven't been on here in a while cause I've been so busy, its nice to have time to be back on here again...
Recently, like last week,I went to see my cardiologist for my regular checkup. She told me she heard 1 extra heart beat the whole time she listened to my heart. She told me to stay away from caffine and that its okay to have extra beats once in a while but that if I have extra beats regularly, to let her know and then they could put me on a heart monitor. I thought to myself 'okay, my heart is fine, but now that she said that I'm noticing extra beats and its ticking me off.
I'm thinking to myself now, 'maybe I should go get myself on a heart monitor' and then I'm thinking everyone is then going to know I have heart problems and I'm going to be the center of attention at work cause I will have this heart monitor on at work. I really shouldn't care what anyone else thinks and I try not to let what other people think bother me really, but sometimes it still happens.
I think of all the other heart related incidents that have happened in my past and know that alot of them were 'false alarms' where the doctor thought something could be wrong but it turned out to be absolutely fine. Just a little parinoia. My parents have always been over protective with me and I would consider myself over protective, though I try to get away from overprotectiveness because it keeps me from living life. You can't worry about every little thing, otherwise the worry will run and ruin your life.
So, now I am debating whether to call my doc and get myself on a heart monitor. Would I be parinoid to do so? I am frustrated by this cause I don't have a clear answer for this decision, I hate being wishy washy. I mean it wouldn't hurt to just go ahead with the monitor...I guess better safe than sorry?
I know all heart patients are never truely 'fixed' there is always the possibility of things going wrong. Because of this I guess I really should go...I don't want this to depress me though. I dont want to end up having to find out that I need a surgery or something, I'm too young to die, I feel as if I haven't really started my life yet, I'm still in the process of getting it together. I want to get a career, get married, be financially independant...I'm still working towards all of this. Plus getting a heart monitor cost money, I think I probalby have already met my deductible so maybe it won't be that much.
For young people like me money is an issue...not developed enough profiessionally to be able to be in great high paying jobs. It all relates together, health, money, abilities, work skills...Argh!!! ITs frustrating sometimes, but there are things I am happy for, the chance to go to grad school and learn about a field that I like, parents who won't kick me out of their house, a job that give me health insurance and a paycheck...
I guess I'm overreacting a little, and making a bigger deal out of it than it really is, if the heart thing is bothering me so much , I should just go have it checked out and get the heart monitor, that way I'll no for sure and my nerves and frustration will be put at ease.
Danielle
Haven't been on here in a while cause I've been so busy, its nice to have time to be back on here again...
Recently, like last week,I went to see my cardiologist for my regular checkup. She told me she heard 1 extra heart beat the whole time she listened to my heart. She told me to stay away from caffine and that its okay to have extra beats once in a while but that if I have extra beats regularly, to let her know and then they could put me on a heart monitor. I thought to myself 'okay, my heart is fine, but now that she said that I'm noticing extra beats and its ticking me off.
I'm thinking to myself now, 'maybe I should go get myself on a heart monitor' and then I'm thinking everyone is then going to know I have heart problems and I'm going to be the center of attention at work cause I will have this heart monitor on at work. I really shouldn't care what anyone else thinks and I try not to let what other people think bother me really, but sometimes it still happens.
I think of all the other heart related incidents that have happened in my past and know that alot of them were 'false alarms' where the doctor thought something could be wrong but it turned out to be absolutely fine. Just a little parinoia. My parents have always been over protective with me and I would consider myself over protective, though I try to get away from overprotectiveness because it keeps me from living life. You can't worry about every little thing, otherwise the worry will run and ruin your life.
So, now I am debating whether to call my doc and get myself on a heart monitor. Would I be parinoid to do so? I am frustrated by this cause I don't have a clear answer for this decision, I hate being wishy washy. I mean it wouldn't hurt to just go ahead with the monitor...I guess better safe than sorry?
I know all heart patients are never truely 'fixed' there is always the possibility of things going wrong. Because of this I guess I really should go...I don't want this to depress me though. I dont want to end up having to find out that I need a surgery or something, I'm too young to die, I feel as if I haven't really started my life yet, I'm still in the process of getting it together. I want to get a career, get married, be financially independant...I'm still working towards all of this. Plus getting a heart monitor cost money, I think I probalby have already met my deductible so maybe it won't be that much.
For young people like me money is an issue...not developed enough profiessionally to be able to be in great high paying jobs. It all relates together, health, money, abilities, work skills...Argh!!! ITs frustrating sometimes, but there are things I am happy for, the chance to go to grad school and learn about a field that I like, parents who won't kick me out of their house, a job that give me health insurance and a paycheck...
I guess I'm overreacting a little, and making a bigger deal out of it than it really is, if the heart thing is bothering me so much , I should just go have it checked out and get the heart monitor, that way I'll no for sure and my nerves and frustration will be put at ease.
Danielle