vhmoriarty
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I guess Im finally coming to terms that this coming Friday my life will change forever.
I will be undergoing the Ross Procedure on 11/13. In Knoxville, TN by Thomas Pollard. He is a exceptional doctor and I feel really comfortable with him.
I guess I have been so busy reading up on everything, getting my family life in order such as babysitters, bills paid, etc.. That I havent really had time to sit down and almost (grieve) over what is about to happen to me.
I have taken in so much information over the last two months and its coming to a end this week. I am always short of breath while walking now, I am constantly tired, which I blame on my ongoing depression also, but this is in no way helping.
I have had no energy at all today to do anything. I have sat back and just watched my children play. Knowing they dont know what is about to happen to their mother. I have loved and hugged on them all day. Then I shut the door and break down in tears.
I know others have been there. I just needed to vent today. Also I think another trigger is my father will be gone three years this coming Monday.
It feels as if I am at a cross road. I am hoping and praying that things will go smoothly during surgery and I will come out with flying colors and go over the mountain....Then the next minute Im doing the (what ifs). What if I never see my children again, etc etc.
I know in my brain that this is one of the most common procedures. But I had never heard of anyone my age having open heart surgery until I found you guys. This is something you find in older adults. Something I was told I would not even expierence until I was 60 or older.
I just need some encouragement today guys.
I will be undergoing the Ross Procedure on 11/13. In Knoxville, TN by Thomas Pollard. He is a exceptional doctor and I feel really comfortable with him.
I guess I have been so busy reading up on everything, getting my family life in order such as babysitters, bills paid, etc.. That I havent really had time to sit down and almost (grieve) over what is about to happen to me.
I have taken in so much information over the last two months and its coming to a end this week. I am always short of breath while walking now, I am constantly tired, which I blame on my ongoing depression also, but this is in no way helping.
I have had no energy at all today to do anything. I have sat back and just watched my children play. Knowing they dont know what is about to happen to their mother. I have loved and hugged on them all day. Then I shut the door and break down in tears.
I know others have been there. I just needed to vent today. Also I think another trigger is my father will be gone three years this coming Monday.
It feels as if I am at a cross road. I am hoping and praying that things will go smoothly during surgery and I will come out with flying colors and go over the mountain....Then the next minute Im doing the (what ifs). What if I never see my children again, etc etc.
I know in my brain that this is one of the most common procedures. But I had never heard of anyone my age having open heart surgery until I found you guys. This is something you find in older adults. Something I was told I would not even expierence until I was 60 or older.
I just need some encouragement today guys.