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Nick Yuki said:...As you see, I don't think I'll be content with two or three drinks. I would drink more if I was allowed to...
As you noted, you had an alcoholic's pattern of drinking. One of the problems with learning to drink moderately - that makes it impossible for some folks - is that alcohol disinhibits you as it literally anesthetizes the frontol lobles of your brain. You know that resolution you made to have only a couple of drinks? That resolution is in the frontal lobes of your brain, and as they become anesthetized, so does that resolution.
There's an axiom in AA, an organization comprised of folks with this problem, that speaks to this: "One drink is too many, and a dozen isn't enough."
PS As you learn to enjoy music without a few drinks on board, you may want to avoid drinking songs! BTW, I'm a music freak, too, tastes running to blues, jazz, and obscure folkie ethnic music. How quiet our homes must have been before recordings and radio were invented!