4 Days post op Bloody Hell / mire updates to come when l am up to it !!!

[harrietW]

Protimenow
Thats very good to know .. I've had my fair share of obstacles over the years.

 

[Protimenow]

Thanks, Harriet. I hope you can do your work without much stress on your heart (maybe while sitting?).

My work is different, so it's a bit more of a challenge (or requires a lot of prayer) to make it work.

I hope your client list fills right back up.

 

[harrietW]

Thsnk you Protimenow ..
Yes l sit 90 % of the time but use my arms 100. % as long as l don't book back to backs l should be ok.
Best of lucky to you !
I will send up a prayer for you

 

[Ladybug]

Hello friends with the most amazing Hearts ever ❤
I am alive and well and appolagize for such a huge gap in update. But l gotta tell you l wasn't feeling much like talking to anyone.
Truly the most horrific experience of my life without question. Way worse than my first surgery if l'm honest !
Not even sure what to update ...
I am 7 weeks post Op on Tues coming
It is only this last week or 10 days l have actually felt like l wanted to live. Yup truth !!
Still pretty stiff and sore ... Not sure what to think of my new heart beat. Can't believe l'm saying this but l kinda miss the ticking of my mechanical.
My heart has been kind of all over the place sometimes weak & slow, sometimes loud and way to fast for my liking.
Lots of meds follow up with surgeon Sept 12th . Saw my family doc a couple weeks ago things seemed to be ok.
I was getting headaches daily there for awhile but they seem to have subsided.
I have concerns about my kidneys with all the lasix .. And my creatinine & GFR which are both out of wack. I will get blood work sometime this week.
I cannot say l am happy that l went through with the surgery quite yet as l am still having GI bleeds so only time is going to tell.
I continue to be quite short of breath on exertion .. Don't have to do much or go far.
My lung have taken such a beating and l still have some fluid build up around my lungs.
My heart aches for my mom every day as l went into hospital immediately after her passing. Why do we make our loved ones suffer so much at end of life. There has got to be a better way.
I have second thoughts about medical intervention after this second surgery.
I have had all the intervention l care to in this life. My thoughts of possibly needing a pace maker are very reserved at this stag. I will cross that bridge when it comes.

That is about all l have for you right now. I have taken my first client after 3.5 mths of not working just a couple days ago & have a few booking this week coming ..
That feels great to be back in my studio.

❤

Harriet,

You are an inspiration to me. I’m getting ready to have TAVR on 9-5-19. How silly I feel when I only have severe AS and lung damage from breast cancer radiation. I love when people are so honest as to say they would not permit all of the interventional tricks anymore. I feel that way about radiation.
I’ve had some rough rides with my own health over the years. And I find that recovery is often a two steps forward, three back process over a long time. So just take it one day at a time, don’t overdo. Try to do things you most enjoy, as your energy allows.
What terrible luck to also lose your mother. You’re in our hearts and on our minds.
Hugs,
Ladybug

 

[Protimenow]

Thsnk you Protimenow ..
Yes l sit 90 % of the time but use my arms 100. % as long as l don't book back to backs l should be ok.
Best of lucky to you !
I will send up a prayer for you

Thank you very much, Harriet.

 

[Duffey]

I’m so glad that you’re back Harriet. I realize that you’ve been through so much, but you made it, and I truly believe that where there’s life, there’s hope. I lost my mother to brain cancer a few months before my replacement. It was a very difficult time, and I think I understand the pain you feel. Once again, please accept my sincere condolences on your loss, and my best wishes for complete recovery. Mary

 

[carolinemc]

Hello friends with the most amazing Hearts ever ❤
I am alive and well and appolagize for such a huge gap in update. But l gotta tell you l wasn't feeling much like talking to anyone.
Truly the most horrific experience of my life without question. Way worse than my first surgery if l'm honest !
Not even sure what to update ...
I am 7 weeks post Op on Tues coming
It is only this last week or 10 days l have actually felt like l wanted to live. Yup truth !!
Still pretty stiff and sore ... Not sure what to think of my new heart beat. Can't believe l'm saying this but l kinda miss the ticking of my mechanical.
My heart has been kind of all over the place sometimes weak & slow, sometimes loud and way to fast for my liking.
Lots of meds follow up with surgeon Sept 12th . Saw my family doc a couple weeks ago things seemed to be ok.
I was getting headaches daily there for awhile but they seem to have subsided.
I have concerns about my kidneys with all the lasix .. And my creatinine & GFR which are both out of wack. I will get blood work sometime this week.
I cannot say l am happy that l went through with the surgery quite yet as l am still having GI bleeds so only time is going to tell.
I continue to be quite short of breath on exertion .. Don't have to do much or go far.
My lung have taken such a beating and l still have some fluid build up around my lungs.
My heart aches for my mom every day as l went into hospital immediately after her passing. Why do we make our loved ones suffer so much at end of life. There has got to be a better way.
I have second thoughts about medical intervention after this second surgery.
I have had all the intervention l care to in this life. My thoughts of possibly needing a pace maker are very reserved at this stag. I will cross that bridge when it comes.

That is about all l have for you right now. I have taken my first client after 3.5 mths of not working just a couple days ago & have a few booking this week coming ..
That feels great to be back in my studio.

❤

You sure have been busy. Hope you are taking a bit slow and steady. Whatever you do, do not give up on living. You are a trouper and keep up the good work. You are doing marvelous.

 

[harrietW]

Harriet,

You are an inspiration to me. I’m getting ready to have TAVR on 9-5-19. How silly I feel when I only have severe AS and lung damage from breast cancer radiation. I love when people are so honest as to say they would not permit all of the interventional tricks anymore. I feel that way about radiation.
I’ve had some rough rides with my own health over the years. And I find that recovery is often a two steps forward, three back process over a long time. So just take it one day at a time, don’t overdo. Try to do things you most enjoy, as your energy allows.
What terrible luck to also lose your mother. You’re in our hearts and on our minds.
Hugs,
Ladybug

Ladybug God bless you
A cancer survivor .. . I feel silly and embarrassed for having the attitude that l've had enough no more DNR finished.
Exspecially after all the intervention l have had .. Most people would be living in such Gradittude right now. I guess that is how and why l have made it this far is because of my long history of living in Gradittude. I'm just not feeling it .. I will admit l quite possibly am feeling a bit depressed .. 3.5 mth is a while to be down .. 2.5 of those mths in hospital.
I always considered myself a tough ole gal a survivor. Not so much any more.

You are a true survivor .. You go in there and let them fix your broken heart so that your lungs have half chance. AS and damaged lungs from Radiation is nothing to brush off as silly. You've been through Hell !!! I pray all goes well for you and you come out a stronger women.

❤

 

[harrietW]

I’m so glad that you’re back Harriet. I realize that you’ve been through so much, but you made it, and I truly believe that where there’s life, there’s hope. I lost my mother to brain cancer a few months before my replacement. It was a very difficult time, and I think I understand the pain you feel. Once again, please accept my sincere condolences on your loss, and my best wishes for complete recovery. ❤Mary

Duffey
Thank you so much !!
Sometimes hope is all we have.
I am sorry about the loss of your mother as well. I do know that you know how l feel.
I am going to keep on putting one foot in front of the other ..
Thank you ❤

 

[harrietW]

You sure have been busy. Hope you are taking a bit slow and steady. Whatever you do, do not give up on living. You are a trouper and keep up the good work. You are doing marvelous.

Carolinemc
Thank you !! Your right don't really mean to sound so down on the mouth ..
All things considered. ... I have high expectations of how l want my life to be and l'm not quite there yet.
I've got alot of work too do and alot of healing ahead of me.

Thx u ❤

 

[pellicle]

Hi and I'm glad to read you are still with us

to answer this question (which has been on my own mind as you may well imagine)

My heart aches for my mom every day as l went into hospital immediately after her passing. Why do we make our loved ones suffer so much at end of life. There has got to be a better way.

I put forward "so that they can control us more" and by they I mean the so called spiritual leaders, not those who we love. I have over the last years moved more and more towards Stoic views where one accepts that if one is born then its natural that they will die. Somehow the society we live in makes that seem like a sort of fable ... and all this talk of "eternal life" is not in this world.

If instead we begin by knowing that we can not change what is outside of our own minds (we can change only our interpretations of what happens) we begin to see a path where we stop pretending that we can change what happens. If we also choose to live with and accept what happens without the need to control that much of what is vexing disappears. If we take the view that every day we live with someone is a gift (not a right) and we know that they will die, then no matter how we feel when they pass we will be able to move on because we accept that reality.

It is good to love someone, and also good that they love us, but to demand and expect of the universe that such a thing should be forever can only leave us upset when it does not happen that way.

I love my wife to this day, I'm very glad that I took every day to do my best and cherish her. I can not change that she is not here, and it is in understanding that in which I find peace.

I found this a couple of years back when I'd rejected all the "teachings" (*by which I mean entrapments) of the Churches and had returned to what I found in my youth - Stoicism ... I think its a good introduction.



I wish you peace my friend

PS:

 

[Paleowoman]

Hello friends with the most amazing Hearts ever ❤ I am alive and well and appolagize for such a huge gap in update. But l gotta tell you l wasn't feeling much like talking to anyone

I'm so happy to see you posting Harriet. After all the surgery you have been through, and losing your mom too, you've been hit so hard. No wonder you didn't feel like talking to anyone - it takes time to begin to recover from what you've had. Remember you didn't go into surgery feeling fit, you'd been downhill since the first surgery.❤

 

[user 16827]

It's been a journey , i'm glad you're feeling a little better

Interesting to read that you sort of miss the ' Tickin '

 

[harrietW]

Hi and I'm glad to read you are still with us

to answer this question (which has been on my own mind as you may well imagine)



I put forward "so that they can control us more" and by they I mean the so called spiritual leaders, not those who we love. I have over the last years moved more and more towards Stoic views where one accepts that if one is born then its natural that they will die. Somehow the society we live in makes that seem like a sort of fable ... and all this talk of "eternal life" is not in this world.

If instead we begin by knowing that we can not change what is outside of our own minds (we can change only our interpretations of what happens) we begin to see a path where we stop pretending that we can change what happens. If we also choose to live with and accept what happens without the need to control that much of what is vexing disappears. If we take the view that every day we live with someone is a gift (not a right) and we know that they will die, then no matter how we feel when they pass we will be able to move on because we accept that reality.

It is good to love someone, and also good that they love us, but to demand and expect of the universe that such a thing should be forever can only leave us upset when it does not happen that way.

I love my wife to this day, I'm very glad that I took every day to do my best and cherish her. I can not change that she is not here, and it is in understanding that in which I find peace.

I found this a couple of years back when I'd rejected all the "teachings" (*by which I mean entrapments) of the Churches and had returned to what I found in my youth - Stoicism ... I think its a good introduction.



I wish you peace my friend

PS:

Pellicle
Thank you !
You are always a voice of reason and alway share a message l need to hear.
Lots to ponder, lots of things and thinking in my life l need the reset button on.
My thinking seems cloudy and stale I thought I would come out of this with a different attitude these videos will help.

Again thanks
Your wife was a lucky women Xx

 

[harrietW]

It's been a journey , i'm glad you're feeling a little better

Interesting to read that you sort of miss the ' Tickin '

Yes leadville ...
It surprises me too ...
When l first found out l was get a mechanical in 2015 .. Suggested by the surgeon l wasn't keen on the idea.. Nothing l hate more than the ticking of the clock.
Strange l agree
Thx

 

[harrietW]

I'm so happy to see you posting Harriet. After all the surgery you have been through, and losing your mom too, you've been hit so hard. No wonder you didn't feel like talking to anyone - it takes time to begin to recover from what you've had. Remember you didn't go into surgery feeling fit, you'd been downhill since the first surgery.❤

Anne you are so right !!
I said the other day l missed the whole summer then l said no wait the last year .
It been 6 long years ...
I have learned to isolate, be alone, suffer in silence. This last stretch has kind of put me in a place .. Praying for a psychic change. I have lost a serenity that got me through alot of trials.

Paleowoman thank you ! ! Xx

 

[pellicle]

Hi
I'm really just happy we still have you here rather than the "long silence" ... I mean after all you did go through a risky procedure and you emerged! Fantastic stuff.

...Lots to ponder, lots of things and thinking in my life l need the reset button on.

and really, don't be afraid to hit that reset and re-discover that you are your own master.

Your wife was a lucky women Xx

thanks, although from my perspective I was a lucky man

about -24C or so that day

Best Wishes

 

[harrietW]

And you were Pellicle, you were.

 

[ForeverThankful]

Harriet so glad to hear you are on the mend! It's been a long road for you but you are one strong woman and you are on your way to where you want to be!

 

[ForeverThankful]

Pellicle, what a beautiful picture. Thanks for sharing it with us.