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LA_Cruiser
Lost the race. One reason I didn't want to go through the operation before getting my financials in place is no longer with us.
I wanted to secure a future for him and my other children and I lost the race (though I still have the other ones to worry about).
I wanted to 'secure' a million dollar business (or same in life insurance) before the operation, for my children in case I didn't make it.
My 23 year-old little angel (son) comitted suicide 1-8-2004 in Austin.
My 21 year-old daughter is now my next greatest worry as she was afflicted with child abuse in practically an Identical manner.
I'm doing a 'memorial-type' website for him at:
http://InMemoryOfCaesar.us
I'll be scanning some of his pictures to post them in his website.
Now my cardiac sufficiency is at 27% (70% being normal). The doctor says that damage could've been caused from my long wait for my needed surgery.
If that is the case I lost BOTH ways. I lost my son and I lost some health. My health is secondary to his life. Id've traded my life for his if that's what God wanted, -a life.
If I could start all over I'd do it again. Only this time I'd work more efficiently in my endeavors. I have no regrets on my wait only on my failure to have accomplished that that would've saved my angel's life, -light at the end of the tunnel.
God Bless all my angels in this board.
I wanted to secure a future for him and my other children and I lost the race (though I still have the other ones to worry about).
I wanted to 'secure' a million dollar business (or same in life insurance) before the operation, for my children in case I didn't make it.
My 23 year-old little angel (son) comitted suicide 1-8-2004 in Austin.
My 21 year-old daughter is now my next greatest worry as she was afflicted with child abuse in practically an Identical manner.
I'm doing a 'memorial-type' website for him at:
http://InMemoryOfCaesar.us
I'll be scanning some of his pictures to post them in his website.
Now my cardiac sufficiency is at 27% (70% being normal). The doctor says that damage could've been caused from my long wait for my needed surgery.
If that is the case I lost BOTH ways. I lost my son and I lost some health. My health is secondary to his life. Id've traded my life for his if that's what God wanted, -a life.
If I could start all over I'd do it again. Only this time I'd work more efficiently in my endeavors. I have no regrets on my wait only on my failure to have accomplished that that would've saved my angel's life, -light at the end of the tunnel.
God Bless all my angels in this board.
Sorry to hear of your loss Marco. There is nothing that can be said that makes that any easier to bare. All you can do now is focus on keeping the other from doing the same and perhaps yourself. Money isn't everything in this world. Love conquers much more then money ever could.
