Hello everyone!
I have been reading posts for a few weeks and I figured it's time to post my own story. I have a bicuspid aorta (found when I was very young) with stenosis, severe regurgitation, and an enlarged ascending aorta (phew, ha). I feel fortunate that I have made it to nearly 42 without needing surgery or experiencing complications. I have 2 beautiful girls (closely monitored during pregnancy and postpartum) and live a happy, active life. I love hiking, yoga, biking, and camping (not good at any of them but I enjoy it!) Back in January, I began to notice a change. Slowly I noticed fatigue, SOB, episodes of dizziness, and overall just not feeling myself. I have been a nurse for 17 years (spent half of those in the ICU and now I work in the schools) and it never dawned on me that this was my heart. I thought for sure I was just getting out of shape or old! ha. My echo in June confirmed my valve was worse, my aorta was more enlarged (4.9)...what a bummer. My cardiologist sent me off to the valve clinic and here we are. I have had some weeks to process all of this. I always knew it would happen and my guess is no matter the age it always hits hard and feels too soon.
I am scheduled for surgery on September 19th. Holy cow! It definitely feels real when I look on"my chart" online and see the procedure and date. Phew. I will be a proud owner of a St. Jude valve and ascending aorta (and a large incision to prove it). I am having good days and bad. Mostly somewhere in the middle. Honestly, I am just ready to get it over with. It's always loomed over me. I have loving, supportive family and friends. Our girls are 7 and 11 years old and handling it fairly well. My 7-year-old has been nervous and asking lots of questions.
It's been really nice reading everyone's posts on here. The good, the bad, the ugly.... it really helps to know I am not alone. I am worried about what it's going to feel like when I wake up and I am nervous about waking up intubated. I have 1 other surgical experience and it wasn't pleasant. Also worried a bit about how loud will my valve be...I am not overly worried, more curious I suppose. I am trying to prep and plan as much as possible (mainly to keep my mind occupied). Ordered PJs with buttons/zippers, books/journal, new post-op bras, a pillow, and organized an area downstairs for me to sleep for a while. It's hard to hand over your life to so many people around you.
Despite the fears, I am so thankful to live during a time when I can get this fixed and live a happy, productive life and watch our children grow up. Am I scared? Yes. Actually, I am terrified.....mostly of the unknown and what-ifs. But we all know we can't control the unknowns and what-ifs. So here I am, thankful my heart has taken me on wonderful adventures this far and hopeful the 2.0 version will take me on many more.
Now I need to get keep and stay rested in preparation for surgery.
Best wishes to everyone!
Kate