joy
Well-known member
Why is it that I always end up being dumped on????? My brother says his job schedule is SO busy that he can't drive an 1800 miles with me. I have two young kids, and I have to drive from Silverdale Washington to Rochester Minnesota ALONE! HE asked where my husband was going to be, and I said driving his car. I mean, I am constantly being let down by family members here. He PROMISED me he'd be out after my surgery to help out. He didn't make it all because of the stupid 9/11 thing. I mean, it may seem selfish, but I'M HIS SISTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My dad has said he was going to come out, but never has. I never get help out from him, and my other brother never freaking calls me either! I'm supposed to come first in these people's lives, yet they left me high and dry. I had two weeks of help after my surgery, then I was on my own. Well, ok, my husband took an extra week of leave, but I feel like I let him down too. I mean, I couldn't work, and it was MY health that screwed us over financially. I get so freaking depressed sometimes, yet have nobody to relay these feelings to, so I clean. My house is generally a very clean place! It's just guilt. I lay awake at night alot just thinking about this stuff. It's rainy around here, so there isn't much to do anyways. The kids are the things that drag me out of bed some mornings. I just wonder, when is it my turn to have the big important job, the fancy cars, and the nice house? Never?????????