harrietW, and please try to be calm. We are where you are right now. You are doing great by leaving it in God's hands. When I was eight in 1973, I went forward in my church and got baptized before I knew I was facing bypass, it was to repair the aortic valve and scrape out what they could of my heart murmur. Then years later, at 36 I had the aortic valve replaced with a St. Jude's leaflet valve. I was a bit alone then, my mother had died a year and a half before my bypass and replacement, she was my cheering. After surgery, she was my angel, watching me. You will be fine, keep being positive and keep coming in here to get answers to whatever question you may have. Hugs for today.