My surgery is now less than two weeks away (6/6/13). The one question that I keep getting asked at work that bugs the heck out of me is "Are you nervous?" I am not nervous that I can tell. I think the only time I will be nervous is when I am laying on the gurney under all the bright lights with all the masked and gowned aliens standing around me. At least that's what I remember from my kidney cancer surgery. I am expecting the predictable - I will feel pretty good right before surgery and will wake up feeling like a car ran over me. But this will rapidly change as they get me up to walk so i don't get pneumonia. I will "want" to feel better so I will want to do everything to "get" better. I've got a great wife/caregiver so I am blessed in that respect. We live in a rural area that has a little development so,I am glad there won't be a lot of doorbell ringers. I've been doing a lot of last minute stuff like laying out exactly what I'm taking to Cleveland. I asked the nurse if I should bring pajamas because of the catheter and the obvious mile long incision and she told me pajamas would be appropriate because they try to get the cath out like one day after surgery (thank God!). We are going to go around and unplug all the appliances to minimize fire hazard. We have a security system which gives me peace of mind and also the smoke alarms are tied into the security system as well. Appts are made for the doggie place for two goldens. Getting a little pressure from work to get as much done as I can before I leave which pisses me royally and can't wait until retirement in 4 years. I've got tons of reading material on my iPad and just purchased a new ham radio which I'm excited to try after convalescence. I've got faith in my surgeon and leaving everything in God's hands. I did something stupid last night....I carried a 40# box of meat up the basement stairs and it took about an hour for me to feel I could catch my wind so to speak. I plan on walking on the treadmill everyday for about 45 minutes until surgery. How briskly should I be walking? The one thing that upsets me the most is 5 or 10 years ago I was weighting lifting heavy poundages and now if I try to lift reduced poundages I get erratic heart beats and I am not stupid and don't do that, but still it's disappointing to watch my valve progression and how it has affected me. Oh we'll, this too, shall pass. I've thought about loosing five pounds in the next two weeks so i will look better on the gurney after they knock me out