Focus on the positive...relax
Focus on the positive...relax
I know exactly how you feel. I felt the same way before I had my AVR on Dec. 5. It's been nearly 7 weeks now, and I am feeling great! Since I work on a computer mostly, I was allowed to work part time three hours a day from home just two weeks after surgery, and my surgeon allowed me to go back to work in the office only full time four weeks after surgery. Of course, I am still taking it easy on the sternum area.
I found my peace through prayer, but do whatever works for you. Just remember that the condition you have is much worse than the surgery, and the surgery will hopefully clear the way for a much better, more productive life. I, personally, found that childbirth was more painful than open heart surgery and I had three children...so to me, OHS was a piece of cake.
It's no picnic, mind you, and you will experience a host of emotions during the recovery process. I found that writing on the computer, and reading books helped me stay sharp and focused during those weeks afterwards.
Knowing and talking with folks who had experienced the same surgery in the past also helped. So, chatting with the folks here will help you stay focused on the positive and good things that will follow for you.
I will pray that you find your peace and relaxation. I know you will do fine in and after surgery. May God bless.