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[Trinityheart8891]

hey guys,

recently found some musical relief, and I thought I'd share.

I know lyrics mean different things to different people, and they even mean different things from day to day, and from situation to situation, I was listening to an old favorite and I was in a little bit of a melancholy mood about everything that's going on right now. I was busy at work trying to put a face on, and act like nothing's going on (somehow thats the politically correct thing to do), I felt like no one understands what's going on, meanwhile in the background I'm busy preparing for an EPS and ablation and I'm trying to not let it affect anything, mentally, emotionally, physically. it was kind of freaky that the song took these tones, but it was totally uncanny, and I actually felt better

the song is "Round Here" by the counting crows, came out in the early 90s about 1993 or so, I've always loved the counting crows

here are the parts of the song that struck me

"Step out the front door like a ghost
into the fog where no one notices
the contrast of white on white."

(having something invisible going on, no one gets it, the only indication is the scar)

"I walk in the air between the rain
through myself and back again
Where? I don't know"

(while I'm doing my daily routine lately I'm "in my head" alot trying to deal with the mental/emotional part of this, it hardly ever gets me anywheres, but its definitely a journey)

"Round here we always stand up straight
Round here something radiates"

(again, a picture of normalcy, busy doing day to day things, conforming to the norm and trying to give off positive vibes, again, if you arent positive, people around you tend to feel sorry for you)

"Round here we're carving out our names
Round here we all look the same
Round here we talk just like lions
But we sacrifice like lambs"

(I'm busy at school and work, trying to continue with the semester, getting ready to take my boards, again, I look no different than any of my classmates, and therefore am no different in most peoples eyes. I go to clinical and work every week, I advocate for my patient's best interests, I try my hardest to be the best I can be, but sometimes I just cant be that all the time, sometimes I just need to break down and cry)

"see i`m under the gun round here
oh man i said i`m under the gun round here
and i can`t see nothing, nothing round here."

(I'm under alot of pressure right now, needless to say, and at this point its a struggle to see the light at the end of the tunnel)


after I thought about this for a while I felt alot better, so I figured I'd share with you guys I have a feeling most of us can feel alot of the same things about these lyrics, really its all about having an invisible illness, no one around us gets it, or gets why things set us off

anyways, I gotta go put my little act on so I can go to work

 

[Dina]

I think for me,the early 90's was my favorite music..Counting Crows,
Nirvana,Pearl Jam,Stone Temple Pilots,etc.
From the Counting Crows I like '4 White Horses' and 'Anna Begins'.
In 'Anna Begins' part of the words to the chorus is "I'm not gonna break,
and I'm not gonna worry about it anymore" --seems always relevant.

I'll have to listen to 'Round Here'...I know its familiar but I can't remeber
the melody right now.
You are so right about music helping us get thru all--good and bad.
-Dina

 

[sheridan07]

You are right. I have music in my life everyday. When I want to get "pumped" up for something I will listen to metal. To calm my nerves I will listen to coldplay,MGMT, some country, most 60's and 70's music. I don't listen to what they say, but the beat of the music. I just put my Ipod on. thanks.

 

[skeptic49]

Good posts. The Crows are on my Walkman...listening to the lyics of "A Long December" helps me get through the winter.

A long December and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last

The smell of hospitals in winter
And the feeling that it's all a lot of oysters, but no pearls

I guess the winter makes you laugh a little slower,
Makes you talk a little lower

I can't remember all the times I tried to tell myself
To hold on to these moments as they pass

 

[Eva]

Thanks, Trinity for sharing.

All my life, and ironically before I knew about my heart, I fell in love with a song for Demis Roussos (I love all his songs), a greek singer.
Here are the words I always repeated in my head or loud in addition to prayers when I needed peace:

Smile though your heart is aching, Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds, in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile, through your fear and sorrow; Smile, and there'll be tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through
If you'll....
Light up your face with gladness, Hide every trace of sadnessAlthough a tear, may be ever so near,
That's the time, you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you'll just....
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear, may be ever so near,
That's the time, you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you'll just....
Smile

If I find it on web, I shall post it.

 

[Lionheart]

Morgan,
I lurk around this site about everyday reading most of the posts and occasionally responding when I feel connected to a person or issue. It is always refreshing when you bounce into the forum and share your life. I appreciate your younger, fresher views and your ability to honestly share both your personal triumphs and your occasional lows.

Thank you for sharing and helping me see new meaning in the "Round here" lyrics. I too have listened to that song many times and never really heard it, so I googled up the Counting Crow's video on youtube while reading the lyrics and was also touched by the meaning of the song.

A lot of us tend to live "in our head" thinking about stuff we have no control over and for me it does little good and often wastes valuable time. I still do it (get stuck in my head) but I fight it everyday. No one else can know or understand how we feel (what's in our head), but they can know us from what we do. I encourage you to continuing doing good things and stay busy with school, work, and play, keeping focus and "mindful" of each task at hand. These good things that you do will lead you down the path of your life.

Take care,
John

 

[Guest]

Good posts. The Crows are on my Walkman...listening to the lyics of "A Long December" helps me get through the winter.

*nods*

Same here.


Great post, Morgan. IMHO, music/lyrics is a great way to cope, think, and simply reflect....



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