Marguerite53
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Well, I was all revved up to go in and get ALL the info I wanted yesterday. HA! Got downtown/hospital with 15 minutes to spare and spent 35 minutes trying to find a place to park!!!! Never had that problem before. Why was everyone at the hospital yesterday??? Thank goodness for cell phones and Starbucks (phoned her office on time that I would be late. Eventually said screw it and parked in the nearest Starbucks lot!!) Very upset about being so late -- it's not me and I've only met with this woman once before (second opinion)
She comes in (she'd been waiting for me--when does that ever happen??) and says there's been no appreciable change in 6 months and she'll have a listen. Scolded me for not losing the weight I'd promised and reiterated how essential it was for me to be in better shape for the eventual surgery. I knew that the aortic valve diameter had dropped below the 1cm squared number (because I had quizzed the tech during the echo 3 wks ago) so I kind of figured she'd be ready to send me off to a surgeon. Nope. She really didn't see why. Thought I should wait until she really felt it was imminent so as not to have to make decisions about valves etc. twice. Why, if it?s another 5 years out, would I want to be making decisions now?? (5 years?? I thought I was much further along!!) I asked her what the diameter was and she said .95. Basically unchanged (is a .95 not different from a 1.2 ???) Said that was based on comparing all 3 echoes (6 months apart). The tech had at first mumbled .75 to me during the latest echo, but I had been pressing him with a lot of questions. He revised it, after reviewing the previous echoes, to the .95. This is all so confusing.
So I asked her when she would send me to a surgeon, at what measure. She said .7. Yikes. She said I want to hang on to my own parts for as long as I can. I querried about other damage to the heart while waiting and she said, well, that's why she listens and looks so carefully, to be sure that's not happening. There is something about a click after each beat that is loud and seems very important to her, meaning my heart is otherwise still quite healthy and functioning. And she must have had reason for the xray and EKG.
I asked whether the stenosis was increasing. She just said that the aortic measurement is what she watches the most closely. She wants to see me in 3 months, to get to know me better. (?? what was wrong with yesterday??) Then another echo in 6 months. I was not able to discuss symptoms with her at all. She thinks I'll feel alot better once I lose some weight and while I'm sure I will feel better (okay, like truly 40-50#'s lost wouldn't kill me -- I'm a pretty big girl) I REALLY KNOW that much of how I feel is not normal. Erggghhhhh!
I had so many questions to ask her and I was so kerflumoxed about being late that I barely got to any of them.
Sorry to go on for so long. Guess I?m just venting. And echoing Harrybaby?s recent frustrations too. And here I thought I had it all under control. I was so prepared. That?s what some of this is, isn?t it? Us not having the control we?re used to. It?s difficult to trust. That I trust this doctor is very important to her. She made that very clear to me. And well I should, she?s Stanford educated, an associate professor at OHSU, past chief of cardiology at one of Portland?s leading hospitals, and currently with dozens of affiliations and on a zillion boards, many regarding women?s health. She is amazing.
Oh. I just called her office about getting a copy of the echo I had done prior to the visit (3 weeks ago, as per her instructions). They can?t fax it to me because she hasn?t reviewed it yet!!!!! No wonder she was being so vague. So what was my appointment for?? Now I am perplexed!
Thanks for listening. Marguerite
She comes in (she'd been waiting for me--when does that ever happen??) and says there's been no appreciable change in 6 months and she'll have a listen. Scolded me for not losing the weight I'd promised and reiterated how essential it was for me to be in better shape for the eventual surgery. I knew that the aortic valve diameter had dropped below the 1cm squared number (because I had quizzed the tech during the echo 3 wks ago) so I kind of figured she'd be ready to send me off to a surgeon. Nope. She really didn't see why. Thought I should wait until she really felt it was imminent so as not to have to make decisions about valves etc. twice. Why, if it?s another 5 years out, would I want to be making decisions now?? (5 years?? I thought I was much further along!!) I asked her what the diameter was and she said .95. Basically unchanged (is a .95 not different from a 1.2 ???) Said that was based on comparing all 3 echoes (6 months apart). The tech had at first mumbled .75 to me during the latest echo, but I had been pressing him with a lot of questions. He revised it, after reviewing the previous echoes, to the .95. This is all so confusing.
So I asked her when she would send me to a surgeon, at what measure. She said .7. Yikes. She said I want to hang on to my own parts for as long as I can. I querried about other damage to the heart while waiting and she said, well, that's why she listens and looks so carefully, to be sure that's not happening. There is something about a click after each beat that is loud and seems very important to her, meaning my heart is otherwise still quite healthy and functioning. And she must have had reason for the xray and EKG.
I asked whether the stenosis was increasing. She just said that the aortic measurement is what she watches the most closely. She wants to see me in 3 months, to get to know me better. (?? what was wrong with yesterday??) Then another echo in 6 months. I was not able to discuss symptoms with her at all. She thinks I'll feel alot better once I lose some weight and while I'm sure I will feel better (okay, like truly 40-50#'s lost wouldn't kill me -- I'm a pretty big girl) I REALLY KNOW that much of how I feel is not normal. Erggghhhhh!
I had so many questions to ask her and I was so kerflumoxed about being late that I barely got to any of them.
Sorry to go on for so long. Guess I?m just venting. And echoing Harrybaby?s recent frustrations too. And here I thought I had it all under control. I was so prepared. That?s what some of this is, isn?t it? Us not having the control we?re used to. It?s difficult to trust. That I trust this doctor is very important to her. She made that very clear to me. And well I should, she?s Stanford educated, an associate professor at OHSU, past chief of cardiology at one of Portland?s leading hospitals, and currently with dozens of affiliations and on a zillion boards, many regarding women?s health. She is amazing.
Oh. I just called her office about getting a copy of the echo I had done prior to the visit (3 weeks ago, as per her instructions). They can?t fax it to me because she hasn?t reviewed it yet!!!!! No wonder she was being so vague. So what was my appointment for?? Now I am perplexed!
Thanks for listening. Marguerite